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Almost 2 Centimeters!

Wow!I have to say I am pretty excited! Dr. T said I am 2 centimeters! YIPPEE! PROGRESS!
She thinks I'll have Carly in five days. CRAZY! I'm READY! Bring it on! :) I felt gross yesterday and today I actually feel more like myself. I wasn't obnoxiously hungry. In fact for dinner we went to sushi and I only had one roll instead of a ton of stuff and then I didn't even feel hungry for our usual frozen yogurt dessert! I managed to enjoy some...of course. I've also had a headache since yesterday and my doctor said that I need to watch out for that, because if my blood pressure goes up fast I could have a stroke. NICE. She also thinks it could just be stress? Hmm...STRESS? Could it be my MOTHER! Oh yeah..We're not getting the house. Why? My MOTHER...She decided to pick a fight yesterday after I told her how CRAPPY I was feeling. And just as we predicted, my mom is now holding the house over our heads. My mother told me if helping us with the house isn't going to make us closer, then she didn't know why she was helping. UMM HELLO! She basically FORCED us to let her help us because she said she wanted help us more than anything just because she loved us. And she couldn't understand WHY I didn't want her help. She said it was like a F U. When I simply just wanted Tina and I to be independent and do it on our own. So, now four days before signing the documents and ten days before Carly is due my mom shows her true intentions and uses the house as a way to get her way. I told her to FORGET IT! I told her that I'll lose my deposit if she doesn't feel good about helping anymore and we'll just rent. Then I started thinking about it and got pissed, because of all the time and effort everyone has put into this house. Everyone's been on a wild goose chase and why? Hmm.. let me think? My mother is CRAZYYY! So, I told Tina lets scrape the money together and pay my mom back. She was going to pay off my car..so I thought we could just give it to her and she could sell it or whatever she wanted and keep the extra four thousand and Tina and I would pay her off for all of it. Tina said we would be able to do it..Scrape every bank account and have no money for repairs food or ANYTHING and SHARE ONE CAR! What did my mother think about that? Well, she called and STILL didn't feel comfortable with "helping" while we were arguing even if its just gifting us the money so the loan goes through, while we pay her back with another check! She said she wants us to go to counseling. She said she doesn't like the way I talk to her. HELLO? This sort of behavior does not make me feel loving towards her. Meanwhile, I just spent the entire day with her at Easter and totally visited with her while poor Tina got ignored. My mom didn't even say hi to her. That's another tangent my mom is on..about how Tina's mean to her and why don't we ever hang out anymore. My mom went on a WHOLE list of things she was upset about and she wanted me to VALIDATE that Tina was in fact mean to her. Its actually the other way around. My mom is mean to Tina. I felt bad for my mom. I thought to myself,"Are you kidding me? She has officially lost her mind!" I feel so bad for her, because she just goes about everything SO wrong. Tina and I decided long and hard about what we should do and we decided we need to NEVER let my mom "help" us again. We have officially learned our lesson yet AGAIN. We will stay in this house while its on the market and look for a rental. Its scary trying to find a place to rent with 3 dogs, but we have faith that something will come up. We know the most important thing is to put our family first. Meaning, what is best for Me, Tina and Carly and the pups. We will save and when the next opportunity comes up we will buy a house ALL BY OURSELVES! The way we wanted to all along. :) AMEN!
Going to the doctor today put everything in perspective. Carly's going to be here REALLY SOON! :O
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